I burst awake this morning, thundering. Already my mind crackles about how tired I am and how I want to quit before I even get out the door. Why bother? It’s already too much and I haven’t even started. 

 

But I return to my routine. I settle into my yellow chair outside in the corner where the fountain gurgles. The hummingbirds fight over the Fuschia and the Jupiter’s Beard. 

 

I close my eyes.

 

I pray. 

 

Twenty minutes in silent contemplation of my breath and my heart. 

 

Twenty minutes of listening. 

 

Twenty minutes of distraction and trying to form a to-do list in my mind. 

 

Twenty minutes of returning to my words and phrases 

 

:trust: 

 

:surrender: 

 

:i love and approve of myself: 

 

:i am enough: 

 

:be here, now:

 

:let the light lead you out:

 

The storm has settled. Now I am awake – awakened from within. 

 

Peaceful.

 

Calm.

 

Illumined.

 

After a few days of rest from the heat, a Santa Ana stirs the dawn. It is Friday. We made it. Our moment of rest is a few hours away.

 

Summer winds down. Just a week until the Autumnal Equinox. The new school year continues to unravel me with its new schedules and personalities and power plays and obligations.

 

I must remember my words and phrases. I must remember to pray. 

 

:trust: 

 

:surrender: 

 

:i love and approve of myself: 

 

:i am enough: 

 

:be here, now:

 

:let the light lead you out:

 

I’m moved. 

 

I am grateful for my beating heart and for the love in my heart.

 

I am grateful for all the love in my heart – love for myself, love for the Earth, love for the world.

 

Love for you.

 

Love you. Be you.

 

Xoxox

Lucila